day before the day before

this is officially the first post to the blog and i have no idea what i'm doing.  this state has become typical for me in the past year.  I seem to have no idea what i'm doing most of the time and can't remember half of what i'm supposed to remember.  i am hopeful that my new attitude that nobody cares anyway will hold, as this frees a person up to just do anything, right?  anyway, just practicing a post.  peace